She's like a Milk Dud, Lis:

today

Thu, 18 Feb 2010 07:34:56 GMT

Tonight, the gin strikes warmly in my belly. I read AV Club reviews, having run out of things I wish to watch on Hulu, and after having my dvd drive reject the movie I had planned to watch.
A couple hours after beginning the continuance of another monotonous project for the never-advancing 3-D foundations class, I'm feeling ready for a break.

Maybe more Pikmin 2 tonight. I am terrible at video games, but this one is fun; I want to get the yellow pikmin so I can get the blue ones that can swim. Sadly, I got stuck at this part of the game and had to look up hints on the internet.

Today I got up extra early and bought coffee- specifically today because it was double punch day. That means I only buy half as much coffee before I get a free bag of coffee, which is a good deal. What a lovely thing to have a whole new bag of coffee in your possession.

Today I went to my first class. I must be off this week. I was in a terrible mood the whole time, and continued to forge a bond with my book-arts cohort who is also in a terrible mood much of the time.
I decided to ditch my second class.

I sat in the sun (the sun!!) for about 40 minutes. I hated this sun in Phoenix, but the first warmth I feel from sun here in Portland... it's a wonderful, hope-giving feeling.
I walked with the dog for a good 45 minutes. I went to the art store and got supplies. I got boxes from work for a group project. I came home and felt productive and started again on this 3-D project and now you're up to speed.

We made plans to talk on the phone tonight. I had hoped we'd emulate the times we've talked for 4 or 5 hours. I think you fell asleep. I hate our time difference.

I am not upset, I just miss you very much. I would love to hear your voice. I would love to bitch about my classes I'm bored by, the projects I'm excited by, the concert I missed. I would love to hear about the Blanchot you're reading, the neverending excuses your coworkers give, the soup you made.

Today was a good day, and I love you.

einstein walks me

Fri, 12 Feb 2010 08:13:32 GMT

Sometimes, instead of telling Einstein where we're going to go for a walk, I let him lead me. I let the leash completely slack and see where he walks. Tonight he wanted to walk to the grocery store parking lot. He wanted to pee on all the islands with bushes and trees in the middle of the parking lot, he wanted to sniff the spot where they have the grill out during the day, he wanted to smell all the locked up carts. He wanted to keep walking down the street once we finished the parking lot, and once my back heals up again, I'd like to see where he wants to take me from there.

free time

Thu, 11 Feb 2010 08:38:53 GMT

I am making a wire picture frame (steel). In the picture frame I am making a wire portrait of my cat (copper), wearing a crown (yellow brass).
It is called King Cat.

Work

Mon, 25 Jan 2010 07:20:56 GMT

I was walking the dog and it started raining; lots of tiny, light drops, like cold little pins and needles. I put my face up, closed my eyes; the feeling when a body part that's asleep starts waking up. My face felt like it was waking up for a few cool, quiet seconds.

confidence searching

Tue, 19 Jan 2010 10:26:04 GMT

I really want a mohawk. The urge kicked in tonight. Not a spiky aggressive one. Just a soft and funny one, that I'll never really put up. I should do it. I should do it. I should do it. I should do it.

final book

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 10:40:55 GMT

this is how my final book turned out. everyone said I'm a funny girl. It was the best compliment from a class ever.

Everything is in order here... lovely exterior scene; let's open up the box and look inside.

Rooms in the house! Well that's nice. This looks like the home of a lovely, ordinary family. Say, let's open this little door on this card and see what's underneath.

Hey! They hide a safe behind that picture! I wonder if they hide anything else?

A gas mask in the chair!? Oh my goodness, are these people spies or something?

Ok, so yes, the joke of the book was that all the tabs revealed spy equipment underneath- other pages included such treasures as smoke bombs, cyanide pills, gun, escape tunnel, etc. It was fun and time consuming, and I'm so pleased to learn that I don't suck at watercoloring!

Tomorrow is metals critique. If anyone says my project is funny in there, it won't be a compliment!

attempting positivity

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 21:09:29 GMT

As I'm on my 'monday' of a 6 day work stretch, I'm going to need to get into a better mood than I'm in.
I did realize that despite my PMS, as soon as I pumped some coffee into me, things didn't seem so bleak! It's been a few days without coffee or alcohol, which I'm a little proud of. I'm ok reneging on no coffee, especially around this time of month, but I like the idea of detoxing from alcohol for a bit. Let's how long I can last!

Ok! More Positive things, positive things.

Loren Mazzacane Connors is tugging at my heartstrings with his guitar strings. !

Really soon I will get my review & get to find out what my raise is! Raises are exciting!

Andy wants to come back to see me in August! Oh time, please fly!

I accidentally made a new dish component that I like and I'm really excited about experimenting with! I was cooking lentils the other night and I completely overcooked them. Like, destroyed them. I was also carmelizing some onions, just for whatever. So in a fit of obstinacy against tossing the lentils, I threw in the onions and butter and blended them together into a thick paste. Added garam masala, saffron, paprika, and a little apple cider vinegar. And you know what? It tastes freakin' great! I'm using it as a spread - I've had a few sandwiches consisting of feta cheese, the lentil spread, a little plain yogurt on the other slice of bread, sliced tomato, raw onion, and sometimes black beans, and toasting the sandwich to get the spread and cheese all warm and gooey - oh man! Tonight at work I'm going to buy persian cucumbers and maybe some bell pepper to put on there too. And maybe some pita bread to see if it works just as well pocket style. My guess is it will work better!

Here's to successful cooking accidents! And to positivity! Hugs to you all.

Just Askin'

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 05:16:30 GMT

Guys! I want to know more about you. Even if you think I know you.

*I love using bags of frozen peas on painful spots instead of ice. They conform to hard-to-conform-to body parts like nothin' else!

*I realized kind of recently that I have a fear of open bodies of water.

Now you tell me some stuff!

Miss you!

ducks in a row

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 02:33:09 GMT

I'm in high spirits today!

I negotiated my rent down with my landlord by $50 a month! Yes to saving $600 next year!

I have been cleaning for like 6 hours. BECAUSE my parents will be here tomorrow! Hooray!

I went through all my clothes and got together a few bags to give away. Goodbye, fat pants!

I found $5 in one of the fat pants pockets! Ha!

Things with school are finally being straightened out. My emails basically read, "Photography is not my 2nd concentration, dickheads"!

The Boy will be here in 2 weeks exactly! Swoon!

In other words, Life's A-OK.

not moving

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 20:13:37 GMT

well, laurie found a place on her own. and the people in the house chose a roommate that is not me.
i guess i'm going to put together a letter asking if we can renegotiate my rent at my current place. I'm a little let down, and a little relieved.

moving

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 22:43:32 GMT

Issues impeding finding of housing after next month:
Have a med-large dog AND a cat
Can't spend much money
Want to stay fairly close to the stuff I need to be close to (work & school)
Really like living alone
Really like my current place
Feeling really queasy about the thought of my parents helping me with my rent every month. Ugh.

Option 1: Attempt to stay in the studio I love by trying to negotiate rent down. Still would be out of price range, but less so.

Option 2: Attempt to find a room or cheaper studio. Emailed folks from CL RE this. Waiting for response.

Option 3: Attempt to find a 2bd apartment or house with coworker Laurie. Worked on this all of yesterday, got incredibly frustrated by the lack of results. Especially difficult bc have to find a place that will take a medium dog, a small dog, AND a cat.

Option 4: Attempt to combine potential roommates Laurie, Derek, & Stacy together and rent a house together. Have never rented a house, have no idea how to do this. Sounds messy & like a lot of work.

Option 5: Other?

white fluffy dreams

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 12:08:21 GMT

I almost forgot to mention that last night I dreamt of getting a kitten, and eating chocolate eggs. No joke! Ah, the true desires, revealed in unconsciousness.

yeahrentstress

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 08:31:29 GMT

I'm stressed about school and a ton of stuff. Let's focus on my living situation. My apartment costs too much, but I LOVE it and it's in the PERFECT location for being near work and school and I get to live alone. I bit the bullet and posted a craigslist ad today and have actually gotten a couple of decent bites in areas I might be able to live with. Plus I opened my fat mouth at a party tonight and now my old coworker Laurie wants to find a place with me, which I think would be okay but sounds like I'll have to do extra work for. But now she's totally excited so it'll totally disappoint her if I go with another option. Ugh. So do I stay in the too-expensive apartment and always feel stressed about money and go into debt and be at my parents' beck and call because they offered to help me with money, or do I go with the stranger from craiglist who's offering a cool house for $200 less a month than I pay, or do I find a place with Laurie who I know is nice but it's also weird to live with someone you work with?

stress. >:(

luff

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 08:24:44 GMT

I got my hair cut off, as promised! I love it!

I don't want to jinx it, but yeah, I'm really gooey and swoony and floaty right now. Life is so good for a girl with a dreamboat at the other end of her phone. God, I can't wait to see him!

Y'all still need to give me your student loan stories. I know you're holding out on me! Aaannd, go!

cloudy vision

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 19:29:25 GMT

I wanna make a kinetic sculpture... or, no, maybe more accurately said, interactive art. I want to make some clouds, and rig them all up to some cool looking gears and pulleys and stuff. And when you pull the ropes, the clouds come rolling in on the sky backdrop.
Well, it looked really cool when I watched it happen in real life.
The clouds in Portland sometimes charge through the sky, and I stand agape witnessing it.

flying t-rex

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 20:03:47 GMT

SO I just had a dream that the news said a severed T-Rex head was discovered to have been orbiting earth for the last however many millions of years and finally came crashing down to the ground, preserved nicely for scientists.
It was SUCH a bummer to wake up and find out that wasn't real!!

(my back is all better, btw)

short stress

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 01:06:03 GMT

on worker's comp because of back now - stressful!

trying to apply for fafsa/ocac - stressful!

no longer can get internet at home - stressful!

up! up! up!

Sun, 11 Jan 2009 20:21:28 GMT

My breakfast of chai tea and bread with peanut butter and nutella woke me up! up! up!

For some reason the shots of the 'little fishes' crack me up everytime. That and the banana eating scene! lollercopter and such!

New year's resolution: work out until my legs look like this girl's! Lordy!

great day

Sun, 30 Nov 2008 02:55:35 GMT

Today was a good day! A very good day!

Today I woke up groggy as hell, so I had tea and chocolate covered pretzels for breakfast; but I got to leave work early!

Today I ate a 'Che Guevara' burrito from Laughing Planet and it was hella tasty (that's because it contains: brown rice, black beans, plantains, sweet potatoes and spicy barbecue sauce, pico de gallo and added sour cream[!!!]). I also bought my coworker a burrito and it made her happy!

Today I shopped in Goodwill but I DIDN'T buy anything because they didn't have the thing I came in for! And then I bought Einie some dog food and didn't buy tons of other crap like usual.

Today Einstein and I took a fun squishy walk in the park and a security guy gave Ein a treat and said he respected dogs with PhDs.

Today I can drink some beers because I have tomorrow off!

Today was beautiful, and I feel great. And I hope you had a great day too!

vacation

Tue, 28 Oct 2008 23:30:33 GMT

ends today. i was going to go to the zoo in my almost-week off, but i did not. i was super-lazy instead, also nice. i would like to just walk every day instead of go back to work ever, mmkay?

couple days ago coworker and i went downtown and played in the toystore and then watched a zombie procession. that is a fun day! doctor zombies! santa claus zombies! there were even unicycler zombies! kudos to a man who can ride a unicycle in that herky jerky undead way. kudos, sir.

i went to OCAC's (oregon college of art and craft) open house last weekend and I am in love with the place. it's like disneyland. it has everything! so i have to wait a year before i become an oregon resident, and then i can apply to lots more scholarships. also i must work hard this year on my work and make it some beautyfilled stuff so that I have a super-impressive portfolio to show. my ultimate goal is to nab one of the $10,000-a-year-for-4-years scholarships and then live happily ever after in that beautiful little school. <3!

also me n john cassavetes are buddies now. did you know there's a movie out there where cassavetes punches ronald reagan in the face? oh yes.

new foodie

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 00:18:24 GMT

it is a perfect autumn day. clear sky, cool air, red, orange, yellow leaves everywhere. it is beautiful, and it is one of my first dealings with an actual fall season!

all my friends and myself from the last entry are alive! we are all alive and I love them all.

i am going to work at trader joe's! i am excited to abuse my discount for my many tj food loves. Look out, hummus section, you are getting pillaged.

Soup

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 23:51:48 GMT

I have been on a soup kick lately!

yesterday I ate this spicy noddle thai soup with pork and shrimp and squid- it was sooo tasty, though I could've done without the poor rubberbandy squidlettes!

I have started making my own vegetable stock which is fantastic to cook with. And easy to make!

Today I made italian wedding soup! Yummm I used ground turkey for the meatballs to make it more healthy!

A couple days ago I made greek lemon soup! Also yummm! Though next time I think I'm going to try and put chicken in it.

If anyone has any other easy-ish soup suggestions I should try, holla!

retail

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 18:03:32 GMT

Guess Who Is Tired Of Their Dumb Job?

GUESS?!

It Is Me!

[frowny]

Levity

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 22:07:39 GMT

oh wow, haha.

crazy guy behind me just flipped out, yelling: "Up your apparatus!"

walk it off

Thu, 07 Aug 2008 02:36:48 GMT

I have been having problems staying out of major funktitude alley lately. It's to be expected, but even so, it's not pleasant. Yesterday Einstein and I went walking in the park, though, as we often do. And that day, we just kept walking. We finally discovered where the Hoyt Arboretum is, along with lots of other beautiful, amazing things. Walked for nearly 3 hours. And my faith is restored. I love that park.